Now What

So it's 1am and I can't sleep. Yes, I am mulling. Now what? How long? Why? What's the plan? Where's that EMail from God? Why can't I "get" that all the things that I type are "real"? God's provision is REAL. God's love is REAL. God's presence is REAL. I can type it, but can I LIVE it? Why do I struggle with this overwhelming fear that maybe it really ISN'T going to be ok. Maybe because I know somewhere in my being that perhaps God isn't quite finished "shaking up the box". I have thought of the entire "perspective" perspective tonight...yes, I meant perspective perspective... the comparison of our struggles versus the struggles of so many others and how minute and insignificant what we are facing is. But yet I still sit up staring into the blue daisy virtual world with wide eyes asking NOW WHAT? So...NOW WHAT? I guess the answer is to "get beyond myself". Or, to use an acronym, GOYS. GET OVER YOURSELF (a self direction intended for me, not you readers!!) DO something for someone less fortunate. Put some "perspective" on my perspective...it's worth a try.